Emily made me do a track tonight. It’s been a while, so i sat down for an hour and made this. It’s not much, but it’ll do for tonight.
Off the top of my head, i call it “loosenyourtie.”
Often for other people, sometimes against them, sometimes against herself. The adrenal cancer was supposed to have killed her years ago, but she stuck around and got on with living her life.
She spelled her name lowercase, so as to be more humble.
She collected people, cared for many. There was no one danelé would give up on. She was a crazy mix of wonder and fears. She was funny and infuriating and complex. I have regrets around my relationship with her, but i remember her explosive laugh and i’ll always owe her for the the years i was part of her family and for the years i got to help raise her son Ayden.
danelé believed in God. I hope she found everything she was sure came next.
She passed peacefully at home surrounded by family and friends. I hear that Ayden was supported by a group of friends who rarely left him. I’m glad. I hear she filled these years with celebration, connection, service and love that paralleled the suffering. I’m glad.
I’m not sure if i miss her yet. We weren’t talking and … well, I feel sad and a little empty and a little numb. It feels weird to write about her. I feel embarrassed, like i shouldn’t be talking about myself or how i feel. She went through five years of cancer, not me. She died. I’m still here.
Still, what else can i do?
I wrote her a tune. I don’t know if it says anything, but it made me feel better.
Actually it makes me smile thinking that she wouldn’t have liked it. I should have written a folk song. Anyway, here’s the track i wrote today ” For danelé. ”
Recording tracks after 7pm seems to be becoming a trend.
Eh, i figure if i’m avoiding writing, i might as well be doing something creative.
This song is really just a sketch, only rhythm tracks, and i haven’t even begun to think about lyrics.
Now maybe i’ll go do a little writing before bed. :p
Ever since i found this i just can’t get it out of my head. I’ve infected J, Diana, and a bunch of other friends with it. I’ve watched it at least once a day for the last four days and one of us randomly brings it up every hour or so. It’s … hypnotic.
Mashups make people sound crazy, but frankly the source interview is just totally insane.
I’m now so addicted to shatner music that i have to watch this one daily too.
Go ahead, watch it, feel the zen.