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Posted by ON in Dear Diary

I really am.

My friend Leslie lent me a car so i could run errands before i go. Holly knew J and i were sad, so she got us each a massage. Neil offered me a house to stay in while i’m in Scotland. My ex is throwing me a birthday party. Three people have offered me backpacks and tons of people have given me suggestions and advice.

Sometimes i let myself forget how many people care, how lucky i am to have all these folks in my life.

But not today; i’m letting myself feel blessed. Love you all.

OMG! Going to Europe!

Posted by ON in Dear Diary


It’s so true! I’m flying to the UK in March and heading vaguely east starting in April.

So, friends, family and teh rest of the internets, where should i go? What should i do? I’m looking for advice, stories, warnings, whatever. Starting in April i have an open schedule and nearly unlimited time (although very little money.)

Do you live in Europe? Want to recommend a city? Looking for a visit? Want to put me up? Have any friends out there? Let me know!

I haven’t taken a vacation in ten years. Help!


What’s going on

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J and I have known for awhile but it took us a long time to tell our friends, even longer to tell our families. But at this point I think most people know we’re splitting up.

For a divorce, it’s going fantastically well. We don’t feel bitter or angry. We still love each other. We still like each other. I don’t think either of us did anything wrong. My friend Neil blogged (near the bottom) that he and his ex-wife work much better as friends and neighbors than as a married couple. I think something like that is true for us too. There’s so much we love and appreciate about each other, but there’s a whole subset of our relationship that isn’t making us happy. More importantly, we’ve been worried that we’re growing less when we’re together than when we’re apart. It’s more complicated than that, but that’s the basics.

And that’s sort of the crux of it. We’ve been married almost four years. The core of our vows was to support each other to grow, even if it meant not being together. So, it’s been good, and sad, and confusing … and in the end we’re just doing the best we can and trying our best to be good to each other.

In three days we’re doing a divorce ceremony. Part of that will be affirming that we’re not completely leaving each others’ lives and that neither of us can predict the future. After the ceremony is done we’re going to have a potluck and wake.

We’re been doing pretty well slogging through packing up and splitting our stuff, figuring out money and making sure both of us will be okay after I go. We’ve decided not to talk for six months while we get used to life as whatever we are after we’re not married.

In less than a month i’m off to Europe to find adventure (and do a bunch of writing). I’m scared, and sad, and excited and numb all at once. I really appreciate all the support my friends have given me …

… and if you’re reading this and you want to reach out to one or both of us, we would love that.

So that’s it. Hope this clears up all the vague European references.

Love to you all,

was ist das Bloggen?

Posted by ON in Dear Diary

Oh yeah, hi.

It’s been awhile, sheesh.

So much has happened in the last month, so much is happening. I’m not quite ready to go into yet.

I’m sitting in bed, just shy of 1 am, writing this with a fountain pen. (Ok, fine you’re reading it because i transcribed it into my blog.) Writing with the pen feels nice and i’m reminded that i promised i’d write my next novel this way. I should.

Anyway, yeah, i’m busy and overwhelmed, but slogging through. Changes are coming, but that’s for the next post. I’m going to make an effort to carve out time for music and art so i can post it on here.

So, if i haven’t lost you all with my rude absences, keep your eye on this spot. There’s great adventure coming … maybe even a few challenges and pleas for help.

Hope you’re all well, Talk to you soon.